Wow, has it been a while since I have posted. I am very sorry for that, things have been crazy and my head has been so full of other things lately I just kind of space on everything I'm supposed to be keeping up with.
The holiday season is almost over and I'm somewhat glad for that because it gets my mind off of my Marine and all of the other men out there who have become my second family. My heart goes out to them when they are away from us during Christmas and every other holiday they will be missing with us. I can't believe it's almost January, it feels like it's been so short yet so long at the same time. I have some insightful information to share with everyone today.
Deployment hasn't been as hard as I thought it would be, it's given me time to go out with friends and do everything that I wasn't able to do because I was spending so much time preparing for him to leave. It has given me the chance to sit down at night and read a book instead of sending emails and prepping for the day I would say, "I'll see you soon". Spring will be rolling around soon and that's when things overseas become complicated and dangerous. But I hold on to the hope that my Marine and his comrades know exactly what they are doing and what they have to do to stay alive. I have stopped thinking about him every minute of every day but I do think of him a few times a day and that's what keeps me strong. I have been able to focus on my daily activities better because I've finally grasped the concept of love. It's the idea of unconditional determination and focus on what you need to do while you know they are doing what they do. Most people have husbands, boyfriends, etc. that work doing the day and see them at night but guess what? We wait for months to be able to have a whole day and night with our amazing men.
I guess it's come with a few months of enlightenment. I'm wanting and dreading their return. I want them home but I'm afraid of who they might be when they come home. But in the end it doesn't matter because I'm standing beside them with whatever they need. They are the most amazing gift to have entered my life and I wouldn't trade them for the world. Sometimes I'll look out my window at night and think that it's day time where they are and when I'm sleeping they are working and the other way around. I guess it's easier for me because I have 37 people out there that I know are in dangerous situations and they will do whatever it takes to bring each other home to their families and friends.
I watch the news when I was told not to, and every time I see something about troops dying, my heart leaps because of fear and sadness but when I see them walking in their uniforms around town or on the news I feel an overwhelming sense of pride knowing that I am a part of something bigger than just a few men. I'm a part of the families and I will continue to do what I can to make this easier on them. Love is beautiful and wonderful and deployments may be hard but when you pick your head up and realize it will be over just as quickly as it began, you will be just fine.
I hope everyone has a wonderful New Year and I will continue to write and keep everyone updated as to what is going on. Have a wonderful day everyone!
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