I can't explain how I am feeling right now. Everything has been changing so quickly. My wonderful boyfriend and I spent the weekend together two weeks ago and I realized something so important.
I'm in love.
My boyfriend has stood by me through all of my good times, my bad times, and my mistakes. I want to marry him. He's the person I want to support me the rest of my life. I think I'll tell stories tonight that will make everyone smile when they read this and then I will give some words of wisdom when it comes to military relationships.
I met my boyfriend in a car crash. Not a lot of people can say that they have that "Hollywood" style meeting. Well, he was the one who hit me in the middle of a 5 car crash. It could have been anyone else in that crash that hit me, but it was him and I got so lucky. I was given the best gift I could have ever been given. He has given me the strength to keep going when I have wanted to quit and no matter where I am in this world, I will wait for him to be by my side again. I don't know how many of you know this feeling but it's my hope that all of you do. You all deserve to feel this way. I've had so many adventures with this man, he has become my everything. We use to fight every day but I'm tired of fighting. I want to make this a marriage some day and that starts with a solid and stable relationship.
When we went camping last summer, it was my first real experience being able to fall asleep next to him at night. Let me tell you, once you get use to that, you never want to give it up. Most nights I still have a hard time falling asleep when he isn't by my side. I keep wondering when I will be able to be with him every day and wake up to his smiling face. When I was visiting him recently, I had a whole weekend to wake up next to him. I had such a hard time adjusting back to normal life after that. I don't depend on him for everything and he doesn't rely on me for many things, but he's all that I want and he's the one person I will let take care of me.
Here's my recommendation for this lifestyle because there are days I want to quit. Here's the first thing that I see, he's become cold when we fight. He has no patience and I end up crying because I feel like he's being rude and harsh. He thinks he is being straight forward and honest. It's a complete miscommunication and if I could tell him how sorry I am for the hundreds of miscommunications we have, I would. I wish I could tell him how I feel but words just can't explain it. There's so much history between us. I recommend building your relationship up by having open communication. I also recommend that you tell him when he is saying something that hurts or that you perceive as rude/mean. Maybe he can't see it for himself, that's when you need to let him know how you feel. Part of this lifestyle means communicating as much as you can, whether positive or negative, the communication still teaches you something about yourself and about your relationship.
Alright I need to sleep. I have classes from 7:30 am to 2:20 pm. I'm working around 40 hours this week and I'm graduating in 2 weeks. I feel so crammed for time but I felt like I needed to give some words of wisdom and some advice because I know I neglect this for a while and I need to stop doing that. I wish you all a wonderful couple of days and a wonderful coming weekend!
Semper Fi Kind of Love
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