Updates!

Wow so I have a lot to tell all of you. I went home on Christmas break and was so happy with my life. Everything felt like it was finally working out, I had an amazing best friend who is deployed but always there for me, I had this man who made me happier than I had been in a while, and I had so much love and support from my family.

Two days into my time hope, that man who made me happy that had said he wanted to be with me, that he was happier with me than with any girl he had ever dated, stopped talking to me completely. No reason, no explanation. I had bought him some really expensive things for Christmas. He was excited to get them but didn't tell me he had any doubts about us. Now he refuses to talk to me at all. I just want to be friends but he turned into someone I don't even recognize. It's fine because I've accepted that I loved the person he was and not the person he is now.

My best friend in the whole world emailed me this morning. He told me he loved me and he missed me so much. I figured we would get to this point in deployment. He said he'd pay for any ticket I need to be there when he gets back. I've never had anyone really sit there and offer to do anything like that for me. It was amazing to read that and how protective of me he's gotten. He shows me every time I feel like I'm falling apart, that he is there and will always be there. I love that kid more than life itself, he is pretty much the better half of me. Which is what a best friend is supposed to be. I kept looking at the past with us remembering the bad things and now with time I see the good things. Even though he is deployed, I've decided that time has fixed everything with us and I plan on being by him through this deployment, the next one, and how ever many deployments he has to go on.

The Marines, loyal individuals is what I find. All of the men I have gotten to known over the past four or five years have extended kindness, protection, and love my way. I believed at first that Marines were out to hurt me from my past three relationships. But out of those I realized that only one of them ever really hurt me and we didn't recover from it. Here's what you must realize when you start out dating a Marine especially after boot camp, they will go through phases. If they don't have a strong personality to begin with, the Marines can change their personality completely. You just have to learn to love the person they become or you have to learn to move on. I choose the first, because eventually I found the perfect Marine to show me that best friends are always there through everything.

That's my update for today! I wish you all the best of luck!


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